Dreams

Dreams. What are they? Are they a brink between our imagination and reality? or they simply just a "dream?"

There is a bit of truth to every dream. If there wasn't, we wouldn't dream of familiar faces or places. But how can you draw the line between imagination and reality. Sometimes you wake up crying, sometimes you wake up smiling, and sometimes you wake up in terror.

Dreams aren't simply the what if, could of, should of, or wish that could happen. It's the hope in our hearts, the creativeness in our minds.

Are dreams bad? Doesn't it mean you aren't getting good sleep? Is your pillow all out of whack? Do I need a tempur pedic bed?

For awhile, I was dreaming everyday, for everynight, everytime my head lay down. My dreams gave me something that no one, no thing, no person, no place could ever give me.

Unending Happyness.

Unlike life. Dreams don't come with the bulk of life.

If I could dream forever, every night, everytime I lay my head down.

I dream forever.

Surrounded by fire

there's no escape
i get burned when i try
smokes fills my lungs
as i drown in my own demise
there's nothing i can do
i feel so helpless
there's no reason to fight
this fire surrounds me
let it consume me
leave me behind
when all is lost

the darkness

as i lose myself
to the dark abyss
my emotions go staggered
im different
its uncontrollable
its undeniable
im lost
to this darkness
it embodies me
i feel it yearning to come out
with nothing in its way
its bound to collide
with hurt

red

scream
everything has just begun
you feel the red
its the rush
its the blood
it goes straight towards your head
there's no reason why
there's no trying to understand
accept it
as it takes over your conscious
as it exhausts your mind and spirit
as soon as you realize
its the anger
but everything has just begun
scream

Bedroom Thoughts

lying in bed
Room spinning
Head turning
The world I LIVE in
confusing
thinking silently
pondering...
wondering...
Where does this yellow brick road end?
It runs through my mind
killing time
hurting it
losing it
The answer I want to find
Stop this spinning, turning, confusing, pondering, wondering, killing, hurting, losing
Mind

thr33

I realize there are thr33 people in life: the naturally talented, the average, and the underestimated.

The naturally talented can do about anything and succeed at about anything. They are well accomplished or soon to be well accomplished. School, work, love, life comes easy to them.

The average have to work twice as hard as a naturally talented. School, work, love, life doesn't come as easy. The average may or may not be jealous of the naturally talented.

The underestimated surprises everybody. Let's be honest there are really no dumb or stupid people in the world. Even an infant with an undeveloped brain knows what to do, to get what he/she wants. These are people who can surprise you unexpectedly.

Each one of these have their ups and downs. Is it great to be any one of them? Probably. Why am I talking about this? Just to let some frustration out. I feel like everything in world you have to compete for. Those naturally talented always get first place, the average somewhere in the middle, and the underestimated are scattered throughout the spectrum. I'll admit I am AVERAGE. I have to work twice as hard to get where I want to.

Life always seems to throw curve balls at me. I always swing and strike out. Until I learn my lesson after three or more swings and finally hit the ball out of the park. I have striked out a lot in the past few months. I don't know if I will ever hit the ball. I don't want to give up but it becomes easier and easier with each passing day. I am glad I have friends who won't let me give up but you're my friends. Of course you are going to care for me and say the right thing. I'm just waiting for that one friend who will tell me I'm a fuck up.

Empty Feeling of Mine

This empty feeling of mine
It hurts more and more with time
It feels as though I am alone
I have succumb to this feeling of mine
Will this feeling be with me all my life?